Wishful Thinking

It all started with a casual hi, which eventually led to an inevitable bye after much fun & laughter together in the presence of a bunch of cool mutual friends.

But things didn’t quite end with that bye, and much thanks to those omnipresent IT devices in our modern lives, we found ourselves continuing the conversation via multiple instant messaging platforms.

And then little casual chatter soon became rapid exchange of banters throughout the days.

Which were followed by a subsequent hasty yet joyful get-together in a foreign town.

Before I knew it, typing on a keyboard while staring at a monitor/ tapping on a smartphone’s screen started to feel less-than-satisfactory, so several long-distance phone calls ensued.

Then, feeling that some sporadic, brief phone calls just doesn’t cut it for me anymore, the calls would happened more frequently while getting much longer in duration.

And now, I’m not longer being able to content with just hearing her voice over a line or reading her text messages on some displays anymore.

       

I WANT TO FEEL HER.

So here I am--clearing my schedule, traveling long and far, crossing borders to do just that.

HaahahahahhaScrapThisShitIWasSuchAFoolFuckMeShameOnMeHahhaahahhahaha

Of Ex-School Mates, On/Off Friends and a Newlywed

After 19 years of making their acquaintance in a sporadic, on-and-off manner with a somewhat semi-ignorant attitude, I’ve never failed to be the receiving end of kind words, warm embrace and i-care-about-you-how’s-life in various level of subtlety and sincerity from this lovely bunch of people.

(We ate, we drank, and they got married)

『我有什麼重要的日子是會漏了你的份的？』

(They’ve tied the knot, finally)

『朋友兄弟是我珍貴的友情，而她是我的友情+愛情所以更加珍貴!』

 (A night like this has gotta be the highlight of his & her life…and probably ours, too)         

                                     

『你們等我别跑。。等下一定來跟你們乾！！』

(Thanks for consistently letting me play a minor part in your life)

『从此以后/无忧无求/故事平淡但当中有你/已经足够』      

Should I continue to be a semi-silent spectator, instead of becoming a whole-hearted participant of this circle?

      

Perhaps I should try to be an insider, not an outsider trying to peek in occasionally.

en → ja

時折

副詞: 時には, ちょくちょく, ちょいちょい, 折々, 偶に, 偶さか, 間間

en → ja

知人

名詞: 知人, 知り合い, 知識, 交際, 知己, 知合い, 交わり, 精通, 相識, 近付き, ご存知, 御存じ, 由縁, 顔馴染み, 顔馴染, 案内, 御存知

Small Words Big Wisdoms

"Arrrrgh! It's raining..."

"Why must you feel bad about a rain?"

"Because it always mess up my plan and gets in my way ..."

"Raining is Mother Nature at work and i like to walk in the rain to celebrate this seemingly petty yet miraculous event of life every chance i get."

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“你干嘛那么爱呆在那啥都没有的老镇？”

("Why would you love spending time in that old town that has nothing much of anything?")

“我就是喜欢这样的生活。。。”

("That's the way i like to run my life...")

“但那儿真是要啥没啥生活很不方便哦。。。”

("But you can't get everything you need in life there...")

“那你（认为你的人生真正）需要些什么。。。？”

("What do you need to live a decent life, really?")

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Happiness is all about maintaining a positive perspective and interpretation of events and situations in life.

Or does it really?

Doubtful Mind

Sometimes it drives me into trying harder;

Sometimes it drives me up the wall, too.

(Any Doubt???)

SELF-DOUBT is a double-edged sword.

Chances are it may end up killing me;

Or it may eventually slap a less-broken, better-shaped or even well rounded man out of me.

We’ll see about this or will we ever?

Disarming Me

I must admit that I have little faith in relationships of any kind.

It is also somewhat true that I’ve got even lesser sense of compassion & trust toward far too many people that bears great significance in my life.

In fact I have long came to terms with the lifestyle of solitude—an outcome resulted by perpetually adopting a less-than-friendly attitude and un-approachable personality in dealing with people.

After all, I have nothing to lose if someone that I’ve predetermined to not care also chooses against giving me the time of day—this way the score is equal on their end and mine, and nobody’s a loser…right?

 

(Some warm words on a cold, rainy day)



Awwwwwwwwwwww…..

You kind-spirited shouldn’t have to be so nice to me, for I don’t feel that I’m worthy of such act of kindnesses.

Yes I was in pain, and still am now.

But I those temporary physical pains has nothing on these unexpected affections received on my end.

Thanks a bunch!

:)