Dear Diary: Am i Addicted to Negativity?

(15-08-05 / Monday / 2 O’clock in the morning / Somewhere far far away from home / a coffee table with a fancy chair / holding a mechanical pencil in hand with a piece of blank paper / with soft & comforting sound of music playing in the background / trying to spill my guts out…Wish all of you were here…)

Am I addicted to negativity?

Hell NO! Maybe I was…But now that I’ve come to my senses, I know for sure that it is the last thing I need for my insignificant existence on the face of this earth.

As I am writing this, I am actually having some sort of short weekend getaway. Had a lot to think about…my feelings…my attitude…my life so far…my everything…

Nothing conclusive, definitive or impressive masterplan on life pop out of that thinking process, but it is good to put everything else behind and try communicating with my inner-self for a change.

It is kind of funny that, more often than not, I avoid dealing with the true feelings I had towards things that I actually care, by means of lying away to my ownself, which, proved to be a terrible approach to face the reality (by not facing it…?), and only end up driving myself up the wall.

How to get involved without being too caught-up?,,, With Life / Relationship, and everything else.

Question with inconclusive answers…

Good Nite…Oops…I mean Good Morning!